Here I am, 100 posts left in this year of 50. I’ve learned so much about myself, being vulnerable and staying present.
I read a column called Dear Sugar, by Cheryl Strayed, who asked her readers “What are you thankful for?” Post 265 seems like a good place to ask that question:
1. I am thankful for the ability to be uncomfortable. It’s in the scary world of discomfort and vulnerability, that I can see the beauty of the world and life around me.
2. The ability to open my heart to accept the raw and the brutal pain of life, but at the same time be selfless and kind.
3. My scars.
4. My mom’s death. She died in six weeks and, as a result, she only had a few weeks to feel the fear of death.
5. My dad. I thought he might be a great guy, but it wasn’t until my mom died, that I really began to know him and understand how great he is. Silver Linings.
6. Second chances, whether deserved or undeserved. I’m also thankful for the times that I allow myself a second chance – which is not as often as I should.
7. True love.
8. For music and its ability to allow me to be lost in the feeling of it all.
9. For how often I screw up. When I was younger (49), I was afraid of screwing up. I’ve learned by screwing up, that I’m neither a good person nor a bad person. Instead, I am a person whose trying to be the person I want to be. No more and no less. I would not have realized that fact, were it not for my mistakes.
10. For true friendship. I’m thankful that I’ve learned that the love of a true friend is as pure as the love of a partner. And why not? Isn’t a partner supposed to be your friend first?
10. Balance and more often than not, being out of balance.
11. For all those people who see me as whole even with all my holes.
12. For those timely kicks in the butt, to move on, make a change and feel the pain and excitement of it.
13. For the fragility of health because it makes us slow down and pay attention.
14. For laughter. The kind that makes you start crying because it’s so powerful and true.
15. For my kids and the insanity and joy of living with them and learning from them.
What are you thankful for?
Have a great day!
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