Well, here we are. I’ve blogged every day for 1/2 a year. If this is anything like life, I anticipate the latter half of this year will go faster than the first. Allow me to take a bit of stock thus far:
1. Has anyone gotten anything from these blogs? I wonder if it’s just my daily and incessant chatter about life, love, kids, work and chance encounters or if there is really any meaning to all this for someone other than me. Please do tell!
2. Have I gotten anything from these blogs? I have to admit that I have cried over blogs, cried over comments from people, experiences I’ve had and even cried over a pseudo blog I got from a friend – making (loving) fun of me – posting “theyearof50smifty.” I’ve learned: (a) that life is beautiful and complicated. I always knew this but writing about it every day brings new meaning to it; (b) that I’ve got issues. I always knew I had issues, but it’s soul-bearing and heart-wrenching to put them on the internet – daily – for all to read. I hope I haven’t affected your view of me; and (c) that I’m on the cusp of something else. I have known for a while that there is something else out there that I need to do or experience. I’m not sure if it relates to the kids, love, helping people or something in between (this is aside my all time dream of being a grandma (no hurry there, kids!)). What I do know is that something else is in my future. Maybe that is true for all of us …
3. Do I have strange(r) experiences? I think that I have the odd (or if you want to be nice – unique) ability to connect with strangers. I’ve had friends tell me that it’s “unusual” to have all these experiences with people I don’t know. Has this happened so I can share their stories or insights? Am I just so out there that I drag their stories out of them? What ever the reason, I feel fortunate to meet people in the pool, in the coffee shop and even those people who are crying at the gas station. I hope I help them as much as their stories help me.
4. What have I realized from writing every day? I realize that I worry too much; I go to the grocery store way too much; that I have super cool friends and family members; that people I don’t know in foreign countries are reading this blog; that “blogging” is just another word for “typing”; that my kids think I’m awkward (I knew that already); that I’m still in Love with Love (yeah, some of you knew that already too); and that we can find a message in 500 words or less.
So, thank you for reading, for inspiring me, for loving me and for just being amazing human beings. Every one of you brightens my day!
Welcome to the second half of being 50!
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